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ThreeThree2007
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Haven't updated in a while, didn't feel like it. When i read what you wrote, I really believed that it was possible for us to...be like that again. It was something i had sincerely hoped would happen wafter all this.
I'm sorry for ruining your mood, and i apologize for taking up your time. I don't know how to convey this to you but every word i've said came from the bottom of my heart. Whether you had believed me or not is something i couldn't tell. Everytime I see you frown, this unexplainable feeling of sadness comes up. Yet everytime i see you smile, i feel happy, but, at the same time shattered, that smile isn't with me.
If only it was possible, i would've wanted us to be friends, to remain as friends. But, I dont think i can bring myself to do that yet. These feelings i have right now won't let me. I can't get over you, although its been a month, I still feel the way i did on day one, unable to stop thinking about it.
Yesterday i had that dream again, (don't ask =D), the same one i have been having almost every nght. Its a sign that i till cant get you out of my thoughts, that being normal friends was not possible yet now.
I don't mean to undo everything we've built up towards that end, but it's something i cannot help, I want to rebuild our friendship, but its like moving mountains. Sorry for all that emotional baggage, and all the rubbish I've been giving you.
I hoped we were but we were not.
Hey, don't know if your reading this, but, if you are, I've really really thought it through. Being possesive just isn't right, you deserve more than this. Scrape everything I've said. The previous month really tested the limits of our friendship, and in the end, I'm not really sure how we fared. I did some soul searching and I want nothing more but for us to be friends.
Not following what we did last time, not being 'normal' like how we were, but to start anew. I hope you would still take this...weakling as a friend again. I'm not going to ask for more.
I've failed you, forgive me. I'm really going to make it right this time. I promise.
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