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Music of the week- 'Still Waiting' by Sum 41




Monday, September 29, 2008



Slipping Away-Sum41

I'm slipping away
In every way
I can't stay awake
(and I don't know why)
I'm slipping away
(and I don't know why)

I'm trying to make it through each day
I'm falling apart now in every way
I'm finding it harder to get by
There's a hole in my heart
And I don't know why
Now I've come to realize

I'm slipping away


Today, I've come to realize, I can't hold out anymore. Again and again you've been hurting me, again and again I've shrugged it off. But like a stab wound, it bleeds, healing takes time, but before it does, you give me another, and another, and another. Pretty soon I've run out of blood.

I can still recall how many times I've apologized after I let emotions fly. But...I'm only human, I have feelings too. I can love and I can get hurt.

Why is it that your treating it like its a sin? Do you even know how it feels like to truly love someone? To be willing to do anything just to spend ten seconds with her. To be willing to move the tallest mountains and swim the largest oceans just to have her smile while with you. And best of all, to be willing to give up on your own interests just for her to be happy. If theres one thing thats unconditional, that's love. No matter how much you try to put it down, I know how I feel.

Why should I be the one to keep saying sorry, when your the one forcing me to deprive myself the right of loving someone? Why must I apologize when I'm the one getting hurt? You say I'm irritating you by telling you my true feelings, but have you considered how i feel when I keep them bottled up?Have you?Or are you simply shutting it all nicely away.

True, I remember how we were like in the past, how vivid it was still stuns me.
I thought that with more effort on my part, we could go back to what we were.
Yes, I'm not allowed to love, but at the very least I can have something thats a lot like it.
That, by itself was enough for me. But try as I might, you still need two hands to clap.
You claim your the one trying, I'm ruining all your efforts.

Every time you give me that expression, I die a little more inside.
Why can't you just understand? I'm not forcing anything on you.
All I ever wanted was you seeing this picture without your current bias.

I miss catching your eye.
I miss the smiles you used to give.
I miss your sarcasm, your jokes and your random teasing.
I miss the conversations you used to start.

I fell in love with all that, but who can help it?

Well now your doing this to me for something beyond my control. I thought you could've been more understanding than that. But apparently you aren't. To take my feelings so lightly, even to the extent of asking me to stop loving. Who's being insensitive now?

Life isn't a fairy tale. Things can't go away just by closing yourself away. People aren't robots to be programmed to your will. Why, in this world is it that everyone is simply concerned with themselves? Why is it that everyone harbors the feeling that 'everything is alright as long as I am alright'

Disappointed. I thought you better than that.

But in the end, you still chose to run.

Sacrifice.

I'm done with bending myself to your will. You've hurt me enough. From now on, I'm just going to be myself. No more masks.

You've just killed what little there is left in me.

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Sunday, September 28, 2008

Okay wanted to post more photos =D


Lets start with Norman being his usual self XDPeckyong two years back
Ataru on my guitar.Meh
A cuter Waihon =DChristopher acting tall as usual XD


Chingyi and Anne
AfiQ and Zhiyang in e background
...infer

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Fine. I'll blog just one more time today =D

Was thinking about pretty much everything, family, friends, life and most importantly HOW I HAVEN'T STARTED ON MY REVISION!!!!!! SO SO SO SO SO SO SO so so so so so so so so so so so so so so so so so so so so so so so so so so so so..............SCREWED T.T

But on another note, the concept of friends stuck somewhere in my mind. Haha. A friend is a concept open to interpretation. Your friend can be someone that understands you, someone that sticks by you, someone that you can relate to. Or simply, a friend can be someone you met for the first time, but has this uncanny sense that you two have known each other since forever.

Personally, I'm a simple person. To me, a friend is simply someone who sticks by me when I need them, regardless of whether we share the same ideals, whether of whether my weird mind can be understood. Depending on the circumstances, this term can refer to some pretty unexpected people =D My friends are all of different polarities with each other, maybe it just shows how I can make up my mind on what kind of person I am. ^^

But, I'd prefer to think of it like music. There are a million genres out there, metal appeals to some, pop appeals to some, country appeals to the others. Just because you like a song from this genre, doesn't mean that another genre of songs are lousy. Was just browsing through my itunes library, to look at my list of 'most played songs'.

The top 10 are;
1)Daybreak's Bell-Larc En Ciel (Jrock)
2)Lead Sails and a Paper anchor- Atreyu(rock)
3)Follow the Reaper-Children Of Bodom(Death metal)
4)Welcome home Sanitarium-Metallica(Heavy/Thrash metal)
5)She Will Be Loved- Maroon 5(poprock)
6)Kryptonite-3 Doors Down(Alternative Rock)
7)One-Metallica(Thrash/Heavy Metal)
8)Through The Fire And Flames-Dragonforce(Power Metal)
9)Ex's And Ohs-Atreyu(Rock/Hardcore)
10)I'd Tell You But-Anti Flag(Punk Rock)

Well, the genres say it all. I really have no preference of one genre over another, just that maybe one might be better than another in different situations. (Metal for my evening jogs, really fast songs for maths, Easier songs for Doing homework with lots of writing...) Basically, I find the concept of friends to be pretty much the same thing. They come in all shapes and sizes, in both genders, with all kinds of attitudes and personailities. In order to befriend all of them, you must first be able to accept all of them for what they are. Instead of bending them to your will, simply help them become better. Instead of trying to conform them into what you deem 'right', try to conform yourself to their values for a change, experience life from all its different points and perspectives.

Thats one reason why friends are present. To enable you to glimpse more than one angle of life. To help you when your down. To share experiences with you. These are all purposes of having friends. A friend is not someone you simply meet everyday, or someone whos exactly like you, or someone that goes out with you or.......

A friend is a partner. True, not a life partner, but a partner for life nevertheless. Your problems may not be your friends problems and your friend sometimes may only give advice, unlike a life partner. But ultimately, they are on your side, to help you, to give you the strength needed to overcome obstacles.

Again, personally, I do not tend to make friends freely. I only do so when I'm sure I can treat their problems as my own, that I can accept them for what they are without discrimination. Otherwise, there just isnt a point to the friendship. In that context, it would be better deemed as an ally rather than a friend.

Well, I took almost an hour to type this post >.<

It's almost ten o'clock now..Still have to finish at least some humanities homework in order to live with myself.

Soooooo.......Yeap, I'll just post some random pictures again and call it a day ^^


The Union Of 4/3 and it's leaders =DLifelong contractual partnership xD


Mr baby milo

The gamblers at the back =X
Pufferfish! XD
Racial Equality in 4/3 (They were fighting actually, before I wanted to take a photo >.<)

Kok and Zhen looking photogenic xDThe association of garden Veggies! With shuyi and Ellise at the back ><
Good ol half-family portrait xP


Randomly NPCC Brothers =D
Random
4/3!!!!!!
Reita and I 2008 ^^

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Finished watching Code Geass xD. Okay, it's a really cool series, a must-watch for everyone. (After exams that is =x)

If you had the power of absolute control over someone's mind, what would you do =D
I know what I"ll do.

Guess.

Blogging on temporary haitus for obvious reasons =D

Shall try to update every Saturday at least~

Till then, All the best for the exams. AND

your happiness.

You, who has captured my heart like so.

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Friday, September 26, 2008

Sometimes i would read my own posts and wonder 'Is this what im really like?'.

Heh.

Maybe.

We're wearing so many masks to live in this world that sometimes we just dont know who we are anymore.

Its a pity.

On another note, procrastination's such a bummer. The weak fall prey to it, even the strongest minded people sometimes just give in. Why? Because sometimes you just can't do anything. You just dont feel like doing anything.

It comes and goes, sometimes it stays for an awfully long time.

Haha...Better start work right after I finish Code Geass.

So ironic.

I want back whats mine, I just dontcare anymore, I want it back, now.
Anyways, thanks for the presents so far =D liked them loads, thanks to

Ameer, my fellow 23rd september-ian for e pens and bottle.
Chrisy thecky zxuny huiliny and hony for the gundam again
Leehui and Leeling for e random stuffs ><
Huilin for e gigantic Mushroom ^^ So squishy >.<


Water bottle and pens =D Mr Chua in e background with ZhiKai and ZX
Mushy!! Its accompanying me while watching anime >< Kyrios! Thankiews again =)
My collection of plushies >< Yea, i should grow up
They were playing with my phone =D

Alrighty, gota quicky finish code geass so i can start work tomolo. Cyas!

Heres a nice song to go;

Away From The Sun-Three Doors Down



It's down to this
I've got to make this life make sense
Can anyone do what I've done
I missed life
I missed the colours of the world
Can anyone go where I am

'Cause now again I've found myself
So far down, away from the sun
That shines into the darkest place
I'm so far down, away from the sun again
Away from the sun again

I'm over this
I'm tired of living in the dark
Can anyone see me down here
The feeling's gone
There's nothing left to lift me up
Back into the world I've known

'Cause now again I've found myself
So far down, away from the sun
That shines into the darkest place
I'm so far down, away from the sun
That shines the life away from me
To find my way back into the arms
That care about the ones like me
I'm so far down, away from the sun again

It's down to this
I've got to make this life make sense
And now I can't do what I've done

And now again I've found myself
So far down, away from the sun
That shines the life away from me

'Cause now again I've found myself
So far down, away from the sun
That shines into the darkest place
I'm so far down, away from the sun
That shines the life away from me
To find my way back into the arms
That care about the ones like me
I'm so far down, away from the sun again

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Thursday, September 25, 2008

I've made just so many mistakes.

This is too confusing.

I wish I could just stop time.

Or.

At least, have one more day back then?
Where everything didn't matter.

Such a distant dream.

Failed again and again.
Perhaps i was never meant to feel like that.

All i've caused is hurt. Misery for everyone.

The lights so faint now...i'm being backed into a wall

Pretty soon it'll all end.

So should i wait? Can i wait?

Not really...

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Tuesday, September 23, 2008










I dedicate this post to GN-003 GUNDAM KYRIOS~ =D

Thanks Thecky, Waihon, Huilin, Christopher and ZeXun!

Shall post about the other stuffs on e next post =D

Yay! I can finally watch NC-16 legally, so zetta cool. >.<

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Monday, September 22, 2008

There are two things that represent duality: Blacknwhite and Snakes.

The latter being not really cute and the former didn't have any skins I really liked. In the end I'll still stick with this current blogskin despite it beign unable to display properly on IE =D

Black, white and Music themed, what more can i ask for?

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Remember I posted the lyrics for this song the other day. I dedicate it to YOU. Don't be sad anymore, don't be confused anymore. And most importantly Dont自作多情了啦

=D

Yay! one more day until I can watch NC 16 movies! (Officially) =P

Feeling pretty pressurized over the exams haha, just dont like stress. Stress is manageable most of the time, but that naggy feeling that gets you to do work always seems to bug me. Ironically, that same naggy feeling usually shows you the best option right now-WORK.

Maybe I'll start getting serious after tommorow, hope for some enlightenment after I turn sixteen xD

Twenty Eight days to that long-awaited Economics paper to mark the beginning of the end of secondary four life. I've said it before and I'll say it again; Time Flies.

mehh.
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Going to go get a new blogskin now. Heres another song to check out. Keep the fire burning! =D

Heeding the call-Hammerfall

A flash in the night, a journey through time
the Templars are back on the streets
Guarded by prowess and the will to survive
all led by the guiding light


Angels of mercy, guardians of time
Shackled and chained through the eternal flame
the hammer will slowly arise


Heeding The Call, one and for all
never surrender, with glory we'll fall
Brothers unite, let's stand up and fight
fulfilling our fate, we are
Heeding The Call


One step ahead, revealing the past
united, together we stand
The call of the thunder, the sign to begin
this final crusade we will win


Angels of mercy, our journey must proceed
With hearts all filled up with chivalry
the lifeblood that we all need


Heeding The Call, one and for all
never surrender, with glory we'll fall
Brothers unite, let stand up and fight
fulfilling our fate, we are Heeding The Call


Oh, oh, oh…

Heeding The Call, one and for all
never surrender, with glory we'll fall
Brothers unite, let's stand up and fight
fulfilling our fate, we are Heeding The Call

Yea, it's power metal, check it out if your interested though, nothing like some fast rifts to keep you up late at night =D

Cheers.

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Sunday, September 21, 2008



Just happened to see this vid. So gonna resume my favourite sport at the end of the year.

Random pictures at the request of christopher:
Emo kid
Retrosexualism >.< Dumpling CY
National day
Norman at his best
Waihon =D
AfiQ

OroChingyi: I holding hands you climbing roof.
Rey: Fine....
One more RS image.

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Okay feeling worried. Guilty. What, confused? And above all, tired. One more Situational writing to complete. Gogo Jingjie.

On another note, heres another song. Got addicted to this one again, pretty catchy =/

Kryptonite- 3 Doors Down

I took a walk around the world to
Ease my troubled mind
I left my body laying somewhere
In the sands of time
I watched the world float to the dark
Side of the moon
I feel there is nothing I can do, yeah

I watched the world float to the
Dark side of the moon
After all I knew it had to be something
To do with you
I really don't mind what happens now and then
As long as you'll be my friend at the end

If I go crazy then will you still
Call me Superman
If I'm alive and well, will you be
There holding my hand
I'll keep you by my side with
My superhuman might
Kryptonite

You called me strong, you called me weak
But your secrets I will keep
You took for granted all the times I
Never let you down
You stumbled in and bumped your head, if
Not for me then you would be dead
I picked you up and put you back
On solid ground

If I go crazy then will you still
Call me Superman
If I'm alive and well will you be
There holding my hand
I'll keep you by my side with my
Superhuman might
Kryptonite

Kryptonite - 3 doors down

C'yas

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Just came back from Study camp at Chingyi's house. SO ZETTA TIRED

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I realized that you just can't do maths at 3am in the morning and that even 4 cups of coffee cant keep you awake when your brain is just willing you to sleep.

Just got my first bout of exam pressure, haha, hope this feeling lasts, at least I can focus on what I SHOULD be focusing on *winks.

Just saw a couple of butterflies mating. Butterflies die soon after mating, the male right after the process and the female after laying the eggs. Wonder if they mate knowing fully well that they would die?

Its a pity, it takes the caterpillar forever to struggle up plants to eat the leaves and nourish itself as it awaits the next step of its life cycle. After weeks in a cocoon, it struggles to emerge as a beautiful butterfly. But in this form it only lasts for a few days before dying. Reminds me of the old phrase 'a candle burns the brightest right before going out'.

Aren't we lucky that we have so long to live? So much we can do, so much we can think about. Compared to the tiny butterfly which probably isn't even sentient enough to think about anything other than to fulfill it's primary duty here on Earth.

... ...

Maybe not.

We often wonder why these creatures struggle to reproduce when their lives are so 'meaningless'. Why bother bringing more of your kind into existence when all it does is carry on your species? Then again, aren't we just the same, albeit slightly more 'intelligent'?

Heh. Windy weather today.

Windmill, Windmill for the land.
Turn forever hand in hand
Take it all in on your stride
It is sinking, falling down
Love forever love is free
Let's turn forever you and me
Windmill, windmill for the land
Is everybody in?

Cheers

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Friday, September 19, 2008





Some random videos.

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Thursday, September 18, 2008

Been saying sorry too many times. Getting meaningless now, I'll let my actions speak for themselves.

On another note, Crunch time is here. It all began with the Big Bang and now alls going to end with our own Big Crunch. Simply, it's sink or swim time.

Pretty mentally tormenting in this period but nevertheless, we have to persevere on, it's the only way to live. Been seeing some not-so-pretty sights lately, bad cases of emotional overload, myself not exempted. But all i can say is it'll pass. Emotions, no matter how strong, will eventually come and go. It's all a matter of waiting it out.

To everyone out there who has been or is currently facing emotional troubles, skip the slow songs, sing with the fast, get it all out. Take a day or two off, if nothing then simply to get away from it all for now. Ultimately its all about persevering to the end, like a test of stamina, its all about pacing.

Sidetracking, Prom night, I still need 3 more people for my table, any takers? >.<

I'm going to make a list of things i'm going to do after the exams,
1) Spend an entire day cloud gazing
2)Go to the BEACH
3)Stay out at night
4)Get that awespiring PS3 and games
5)SPORTS
6)Shop for clothes xD
7)Finally do something about my hair
8)Learn Blues theory
9)Get an acoustic guitar
10)Learn the piano
11)Re-form a band

And the list goes on. Oh well, 2 more months before I can do that, in the meantime it would serve as motivation~

One month to exams, time to gear up. To all my friends, yes YOU included
thanks for being there for me, as emotions run high now, hope you all are coping just fine. All i want to say is....>.< I'll be there for you guys if you need me, just give me a nudge =D okay mushy, shall do amaths now, sayonara.

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This is not the end- The Bravery

Tell me
Come on tell me what you can
Even as you wait for death your wiser than I am
Tell me what does it mean to exist
I am not a scientist I must believe there's more to this
And I can not accept
That everything is real
Is only what our eyes can see
And our hands can feel

[chorus]
Not even earth can hold us
Not even life controls us
Not even the ground can keep us down
The memories in my head
Are just as real the time we spent
You always be close to me
My friend
This is not the end

I see
I can see your so afraid
We are like the silver herd on u even feel obscured
I wish I wish I had some words to give
But all I can think to say
Is I will be with you everyday

[chorus]
Not even earth can hold us
Not even life controls us
Not even the ground can keep us down
The memories in my head
I just realized the time we spent
You always be close to me
My friend
This is not the end

La la la la la
This is not the end
La la la l al la
This is not the end

I don't care
I don't care what you believe
As long as you are in my heart
Your just as real as me
Maybe even more
And one has touched so many lifes
And never never die

[chorus]
Not even earth can hold us
Not even life controls us
Not even the ground can keep us down
The memories in my head
I just realized the time we spent
You always be close to me
My friend
This is not the end

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Tuesday, September 16, 2008

The days haven't been kind lately, time seems to be slipping away too fast.
Way too fast.

Sorry, don't really have the mood to blog today, seriously troubled.

Sometimes when you just cant prioritize whether one thing is more important than another, when nothing else matters,it gets pretty annoying. Very, very annoying.

Don't think i have the damn mood to carry on anymore, there just isn't anymore meaning to trying to go on.

Life sucks, problems suck, you suck.

Just too selfish.

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Sunday, September 14, 2008

Daybreaks bell

Nee konna katachi no deai shika nakatta no? Kanashii ne
Anata ni shindemo ayamete hoshiku mo nai onegai
Unmei sae nomikomade shizumisouna umi e to

Negai yo kaze ni notte yoake no kane wo narase yo
Tori no you ni My wishes over their airspace
Musuu no nami wo koe Asu en tachimukau anata wo
mamoritamae My life I trade in for your pain
Arasoi yo tomare!

Nee hito wa doushite kurikaeshi ayamachi wo kasaneteku?
Shinka shinai dare ni mo nagareru kono chi ga daikirai
Honnou de sabakiau dare no demo nai daichi de

Sumiwataru mirai ga kita nara kusabana mo
heiki ni yadoru darou My wishes over their airspace
Dare ga yuriokoshite warui yume kara samashite yo
Kanau no nara My life I trade in for your pain
Dore dake inoreba ten ni todoku?

Ima asayake ga unabarato watashi wo utsusu

Negai yo kaze ni notte yoake no kane wo narase yo
Tori no you ni My wishes over their airspace
Musuu no nami wo koe Asu e tachimukau anata wo
mamoritamae My life I trade in for your pain
Furimukazu habatake kono omoi wo hakonde ano sora wo tondeku
Mirai wa dare ni mo uchiotosenai

Translation:

Hey, haven’t you seen another shape besides this one? That’s so sad
To you, there’s no desire to die or to kill, oh, please

Drink it up, even the fate, to the sinking sea
My wishes, ride on the wind, ring the bell of the daybreak
Just like a bird My wishes over their airspace
Cross through the countless number of waves, stand against tomorrow,
protecting you My life I trade in for your pain
Stop the dispute!

Hey, why people pile up the repeating mistakes?
No one is evolving, this flowing blood, I loathe it most
To judge each other by instinct, in this no-one-around earth

If the clear future has come, the flower plants will also
dwell in the weapons My wishes over their airspace
Anyone, shake me up, wake me up from the nightmare
If it comes true My life I trade in for your pain
How long until my prayers reach the sky?

Now the morning glow pictures the ocean and me

My wishes, ride on the wind, ring the bell of the daybreak
Just like a bird My wishes over their airspace
Cross through the countless number of waves, stand against tomorrow,
protecting you My life I trade in for your pain
Flap your wings without turning around,
bring along these thoughts, fly to that sky
The future can’t be defeated by anyone

Felt that this was a pretty nice song. When everything is wrong, look to the future, even if thats all you can look forward to right now. Some may remember this as the first Gundam 00 opening song. Pretty fitting for the entire theme of mistakes humans make in their foolish pursuit of war and how the future always holds hope for us, no matter how grim things look right now.

Vid:

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Been awhile since my last post, such rainy weather these days =/

Well, the second prelims are over, alls left is the real thing 35 days later.
For some reason im not even excited about it, its BORING days like these where your mind wanders and wanders and wanders aimlessly. Didn't feel like doing any work either. Basically thought about the same THING the entire day and its driving me nuts. Only question now is why. And I can find an entire day just to think about that question and not come to an answer.
I'm distraught and shattered, youve won, congratulations.
Well, what can I say, thats life. We weren't born to be efficient. Give a man all the time in the world and he spends 1/3 of it sleeping and another1/3 wasting it away not doing anything. Give another 1/24 to ecetra stuff he does and we're left with 7/24 of our life. Thats not including travelling, which probably deserves another 1/24, leaving the grand total to be 1/4 of our life spent productively.
Give yourself a pat on the back.
Therefore out of the roughly 76 years a man lives, only 19 years are useful, the rest is just being wasted away. Sure brings a whole new meaning to the phrase 'life is short' doesn't it. As if thats not bad enough, how often do we do things we LIKE to do, or has any use to us in the future? We spend roughly 16 years of our lives without a clear direction and end up just learning everything that comes our way, most of it we're never going to use again.
Because I can't forget you, cant stop thinking about it.
Bottomline, life is short, start planning today. Sure, unexpected things come in the way all the time, spoiling all those carefully calculated schedules, distorting those distant goals. But it happens to everyone, thats life, pure and simple. In the likely events of such meteorites striking your world, theres nothing to do but get back up again. Evolve, become a greater person from it, make a slight change in the master plan and carry on. Any plan is better than no plan.
As to how much you really matter, you just don't know right now. =)

In the end, the people who have a clear goal and a path to attain that goal will emerge victorious. Its not an assumption, its a proven fact. Plan ahead and it'll all turn out alright. Alls well that ends well is the phrase i believe. Right now im in one of those damn irritating moments where im questioning whether anything i'm doing has any damn meaning at all, hopefully it'll pass. Cheers!
Smile

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Wednesday, September 10, 2008

Into the abyss i plunge,
Leading to the end of fate,
Or what it seems to control.
Veiling my every decision,
Enforcing its will on my every move.

Yesterday was but a dream,
Ordeals were meant to be forgotten,
Useless memories to be shed.

Fire once warmed my heart,
Omitting the taste of failure.
Rectifying the wrongs, blazing tommorow's glory.

Embers are all that's left,
Verifying my defeat.
Emptiness lies beyond this mirror,
Reflecting my empty soul.

Another day another life,
Never ending cycle,
Despair lies beyond.

Even angels can't save me now,
Valiant struggle I put up.
Everythings gone now,
Reality strikes, I'm nothing without you now.

Yea, hope tomorrows a better day =)
Heh, read between the lines =D was bored >.<
Late already and physics tomolo! Havent studied zzz So zetta screwed

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Monday, September 8, 2008

Been listening to All American rejects today. Kind of caught my attention with their lyrics =X. Added a song for the blog , pretty catchy actually for a sad song =D


There are some times in life where you realized you've made a mistake with your decision. Maybe you've gotten your priorities wrong, maybe you've let emotions control you too much.(Or maybe you just don't understand yourself enough) Either way, you feel screwed when you finally realise this path isn't leading you anywhere near happiness, rather, you just making the situation worse.

Well, if that happens, I think its time to sit down and reflect. Sometimes the correct path isn't the one that may seem the most obvious right now, rather, it may simply just clash with what you believe you should do right now. However, despite everything, it is the right choice, it may hurt now, but in the end everything would turn out for the best if you can stick to the right decision.

Not studying today. Just tired =D (
Ching Yi, your fault for making me stay up till one to teach you chem.)

Speaking of time, Rey and I were just discussing the topic today while being bored. Was talking about how time seems to be something straight out of the fourth dimension, a vector that cant be formulated, cant be fully understood, of which origin itself isn't understood. Simply put, it is something that just...flows. xD

Sparked my interest and I did some studying into the matter, coming into some pretty interesting stuff. Go read up yourself if your interested~ look up
Time paradox, Quantum suicide, Multiverse and Ontological paradox in good old wikipedia. Some things to put serious thought into.

Shall end this post with lyrics from Move Along


Go ahead as you waste your days with thinking
When you fall everyone stands
Another day and you've had your fill of sinking
With the life held in your
Hands are shaking cold
These hands are meant to hold

Speak to me, when all you got to keep is strong
Move along, move along like I know you do
And even when your hope is gone
Move along, move along just to make it through
Move along
Move along

So a day when you've lost yourself completely
Could be a night when your life ends
Such a heart that will lead you to deceiving
All the pain held in your
Hands are shaking cold
Your hands are mine to hold

Speak to me, when all you got to keep is strong
Move along, move along like I know you do
And even when your hope is gone
Move along, move along just to make it through
Move along
(Go on, go on, go on, go on)

When everything is wrong we move along
(Go on, go on, go on, go on)
When everything is wrong, we move along
Along, along, along

When all you got to keep is strong
Move along, move along like I know you do
And even when your hope is gone
Move along, move along just to make it through

(Move along)
(Go on, go on, go on, go on)
Right back what is wrong
We move along

When life's come to a standstill, sometimes its best to just go with the flow.
Its time to MOVE ON =D

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Sunday, September 7, 2008

10th post? =D

Read somewhere that blogging tends to help cheer one up. Hope this zetta works =/

Wonderful clouds in the sky today, fluffy alto-cumulus clouds that look so comforting and yet dont signal the coming of rain =]

Learnt something new about the human mind today. The last month seemed like it took forever to pass. It's true we tend to remember bad stuff more easily than easy stuff. For some reason, theres a tendency to recall negative events more often than all the happy moments spent with..say, a friend?

This year really flew by fast, I'm in the ninth month now, which means exams are drawing near, a long break is near and the end of another chapter is dawning. I still remember the time when I first came into this school, the orientation programme, the feeling that everything is foreign and changing myself to adapt to my new environment.

Looking back, I've just made a 180 degrees change since then. Definitely matured, some things changed for the better, others for the worse. All in all, I've learnt much more about life in those four years, more about how others think, how to care for the ones around you more.

Bored. Well typing that helped =D tommorows the start of term four, the final frontier to these four years.........................................................alright I think I'll...draw xD. Such nice weather~

eleven months and counting, well I am, hope you are too =D

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Friday, September 5, 2008

Haven't updated in a while, didn't feel like it. When i read what you wrote, I really believed that it was possible for us to...be like that again. It was something i had sincerely hoped would happen wafter all this.

I'm sorry for ruining your mood, and i apologize for taking up your time. I don't know how to convey this to you but every word i've said came from the bottom of my heart. Whether you had believed me or not is something i couldn't tell. Everytime I see you frown, this unexplainable feeling of sadness comes up. Yet everytime i see you smile, i feel happy, but, at the same time shattered, that smile isn't with me.

If only it was possible, i would've wanted us to be friends, to remain as friends. But, I dont think i can bring myself to do that yet. These feelings i have right now won't let me. I can't get over you, although its been a month, I still feel the way i did on day one, unable to stop thinking about it.

Yesterday i had that dream again, (don't ask =D), the same one i have been having almost every nght. Its a sign that i till cant get you out of my thoughts, that being normal friends was not possible yet now.

I don't mean to undo everything we've built up towards that end, but it's something i cannot help, I want to rebuild our friendship, but its like moving mountains. Sorry for all that emotional baggage, and all the rubbish I've been giving you.

I hoped we were but we were not.


Hey, don't know if your reading this, but, if you are, I've really really thought it through. Being possesive just isn't right, you deserve more than this. Scrape everything I've said. The previous month really tested the limits of our friendship, and in the end, I'm not really sure how we fared. I did some soul searching and I want nothing more but for us to be friends.

Not following what we did last time, not being 'normal' like how we were, but to start anew. I hope you would still take this...weakling as a friend again. I'm not going to ask for more.


I've failed you, forgive me. I'm really going to make it right this time. I promise.




=3

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